My Desire

A song that helps me to come back to God. Not to hold back the past and mistakes, but to forgive myself and others. A song that reminds us to lay it all our desire to God. Hope this song blesses you to!

MY DESIRE

You want to be real

You want to be empty inside

You want to be someone laying down your pride

You want to be someone someday

Then lay it all down before the King

You want to be whole

You want to have purpose inside

You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today then lay it all down before the King

[Chorus:]

This is my desire

This is my return

This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real

You want to be emptied inside

And I know my heart is to feel you near

And I know my life

It's to do your will

It's to do your will

[Chorus]

All my life I have seen where you've taken me

Beyond all I have hoped and there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done so I give my hands to use

i remember during my second year college.i was posting at the busiest medical ward in Assunta Hospital. while doing my morning duty, i assist an old man from the bed to a commod chair ( a mobile chair that can be used for defecation and passing urine). after he did his business, i help to clean him. after all things were done, he look at me and said i have a daughter just like you! and he started kissing my hands and arm saying thank you! thank you! repeatedly. i was rather shocked but still smiled and say welcome. later he told me he was a professor in a university. few minutes later, his wife came in the room. i smile at her, she thank me too. before the man discharged from the ward, i saw both of them in a loving gesture trying to find words to write in a thank you card for the staff nurses.
to patients, helping them to clean them self up would make them feel shy and obligated. for nurses to meet their demands, it not easy. i didn't mind cleaning people's dirt,cause Jesus had already clean it up for me.

Few minutes ago, my sister gave me a link.. i click it and the tittle of the link is Makes Me Think - Today's Thought -Provoking Life Stories. i read and read, as i reach the middle part, i begun to tear.. then i recall back the things that i've done, the good things,although nobody saw it, but it made me happy. for the bad things, i regreted and move on to be better. For now, i may not be the greatest nurse on earth, but i know what it means to nurse a heart. not to brag about how many good deeds i've done, but nursing a heart isn't easy.

i remember when i was about to enter the operating theater for my submucosa diathermy surgery done on my nose, i felt scared. but the whole OT team member was very nice to me. from the nurses to the doctors. they smile at me and calmed me by assuring me that everything will be alright. they nursed my heart before i fell asleep under the general anaesthesia.

there was a homeless Indian man always sleeping at a sidewalk beside Public Bank at old town,PJ. For the past 3 years in college, as often i go old town, the old man will be there, sleeping with his saliva drooling out. And it makes me wonder, is he hungry? is he cold? when was the last time he had a bath? Finally, one day... i took the courage to buy a loaf of bread and a bottle of mineral water. i left the plastic bag beside him while he was sleeping. Few minutes later, i checked on him, the Indian man left, but i saw all the bread and water was finish. that day i felt so happy and contented. Nobody saw, but God saw. it made me happy. Few months later, i don't see that man anymore. i wonder where he went.

Few months ago, on a Sunday evening, my friends me invited for dinner. i was undecided.i asked my mom can i go dinner with my friends. she hesitate, but said i could still go out with my friends. anyhow i still stayed home, had dinner with family. after dinner it occur ed to me, my mom is sick, but she took the effort to make delicious soup for whole family. i love you mummy.