My Desire

A song that helps me to come back to God. Not to hold back the past and mistakes, but to forgive myself and others. A song that reminds us to lay it all our desire to God. Hope this song blesses you to!

MY DESIRE

You want to be real

You want to be empty inside

You want to be someone laying down your pride

You want to be someone someday

Then lay it all down before the King

You want to be whole

You want to have purpose inside

You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today then lay it all down before the King

[Chorus:]

This is my desire

This is my return

This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real

You want to be emptied inside

And I know my heart is to feel you near

And I know my life

It's to do your will

It's to do your will

[Chorus]

All my life I have seen where you've taken me

Beyond all I have hoped and there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all you've done so I give my hands to use

i remember during my second year college.i was posting at the busiest medical ward in Assunta Hospital. while doing my morning duty, i assist an old man from the bed to a commod chair ( a mobile chair that can be used for defecation and passing urine). after he did his business, i help to clean him. after all things were done, he look at me and said i have a daughter just like you! and he started kissing my hands and arm saying thank you! thank you! repeatedly. i was rather shocked but still smiled and say welcome. later he told me he was a professor in a university. few minutes later, his wife came in the room. i smile at her, she thank me too. before the man discharged from the ward, i saw both of them in a loving gesture trying to find words to write in a thank you card for the staff nurses.
to patients, helping them to clean them self up would make them feel shy and obligated. for nurses to meet their demands, it not easy. i didn't mind cleaning people's dirt,cause Jesus had already clean it up for me.

Few minutes ago, my sister gave me a link.. i click it and the tittle of the link is Makes Me Think - Today's Thought -Provoking Life Stories. i read and read, as i reach the middle part, i begun to tear.. then i recall back the things that i've done, the good things,although nobody saw it, but it made me happy. for the bad things, i regreted and move on to be better. For now, i may not be the greatest nurse on earth, but i know what it means to nurse a heart. not to brag about how many good deeds i've done, but nursing a heart isn't easy.

i remember when i was about to enter the operating theater for my submucosa diathermy surgery done on my nose, i felt scared. but the whole OT team member was very nice to me. from the nurses to the doctors. they smile at me and calmed me by assuring me that everything will be alright. they nursed my heart before i fell asleep under the general anaesthesia.

there was a homeless Indian man always sleeping at a sidewalk beside Public Bank at old town,PJ. For the past 3 years in college, as often i go old town, the old man will be there, sleeping with his saliva drooling out. And it makes me wonder, is he hungry? is he cold? when was the last time he had a bath? Finally, one day... i took the courage to buy a loaf of bread and a bottle of mineral water. i left the plastic bag beside him while he was sleeping. Few minutes later, i checked on him, the Indian man left, but i saw all the bread and water was finish. that day i felt so happy and contented. Nobody saw, but God saw. it made me happy. Few months later, i don't see that man anymore. i wonder where he went.

Few months ago, on a Sunday evening, my friends me invited for dinner. i was undecided.i asked my mom can i go dinner with my friends. she hesitate, but said i could still go out with my friends. anyhow i still stayed home, had dinner with family. after dinner it occur ed to me, my mom is sick, but she took the effort to make delicious soup for whole family. i love you mummy.

twilight

okay people..finally i watch twilight - New Moon movie. well, i didn't find it much interesting, only the part when Jacob turns into a wolf. i find everything in the movie is so slowing moving.... even when they talk. arrghh.... slow slow slow.. like a slow lorris. but Edward Cullen is definetly handsome! :) olala....

staying awake

hello! :)

it's 12.17am... trying to stay up late a little while more. it's been quite a habit i've been going to bed too early! and too much sleep makes me feel even sleepier!

few things in my mind right now:
1) work! :S (but tomorrow worries shall worry for itself... i must let it beeee!)
2) a day more to July 21st! :)
3) i soooo wanna go shopping right now! like i'm so in the mood to buy stuff!
4) still cherishing the fun i had on last Saturday! wahooo!
5) i wonder what will happen on Wednesday.
6) so in love with Katy Perry and Timberland song : If We Ever Meet Again.

Nutella Island

I had Nutella with bread yesterday. :)

Few weeks back, or last month, i dream if Nutella. My family and i went on a holiday trip to an island. We flew by aeroplane.... and for the whole day we visited tourist spots in the island. Our last destination was the Nutella Factory. It was huge, before you enter the factory you could smell the cocoa flavour from the smoke rising from the chimney (remember Charlie and the Chocolate Factory?) As we enter, we could see from the glass mirror how Nutella was being made. Oh i if you have a good imagination, imagine rows of nutella boiling inside hot pot. Workers will be string and stiring the nutella until it's thick and creamy... oh you'll get hungry buy just seeing it. Then, we adjourned to the center of factory were chocolate sculptures was displayed. hmmm...yummy.. there were Nutella arranged in pyramid shape for sale! as i came close to check the prizes. a bottle of Nutella was only 3 dollar!..even after conversion back to Malaysian Ringgit..it's was still cheap. Hence, i bought bottles of it!

Well, slowly my dream was fading... next i remember was wanting to play in a beach but it was awfully dirty. I remember hearing on f my sisters voice saying 'don't step of the lizard tail!' dirty beach. Spoiled my Nutella dream.

Nutella spread. Everybody likes Nutella spread, whether you're young or old...you'll never get sick of it. (unless you have it for 3 meals a day)

Tips on how to enjoy a Nutella spread :

1. Open the bottle cover, take 10seconds, smelling the Nutella aroma.
2. Scoop out the Nutella, spread evenly on your bread, (make sure every corner is covered)
3. Place a cheese on top of the Nutella.
4. Cut slices of banana and spread evenly on top of the cheese and Nutella.
5. Toast your bread in toaster until the cheese melts (the banana will sink in between the cheese)
6.Finally. enjoy you meal with a glass orange juice! :)

Stories that made me cry....

As some of you would know, i am not the person that likes scary and horror movies... cause i'll get nightmares. Even playing life 4 dead (L4D) or listening to my brother explaining how trilling and exciting was the story of Sweeney Todd, i'll get nightmares. Hence, i would rather go for movies that are romantic, funny, family type..as long it's not scary.
And so, today i've just watch HACHIKO. Hachiko is based on a true story.... that this special dog would accompany his master to the train station every morning and then returns in the afternoon to greet him back everyday. But when one day his master never returns... Hachiko faithfully returns to the same spot at the train station to wait for his master. This happens everyday, and for the next 9 years.
Touching huh? Well, sure did i cried.

After the watching the movie, i begun to ponder who many movies or stories that i have cried after watching/reading it. And here are the list:

Movies
1. PS.I LOVE YOU.
2. The Passion of Christ.
3. Hachiko.
4. The Click ( it wasn't a very touching movie, but i cried cause i was very emo on that day.. a day before starting work)

Books
1. Road Dahl - Boy
2. Twilight

hmmm... doesn't seems much tho or i've forgotten. oh well... if i would to cry on every single movies, my oh my.. my tear duct IS huge to carry so much tears! :P